Ant Attack

I was attacked by a bunch of ants yesterday.. while digging for my exam papers tt my tuition tcher wanted. It is never amusing to take out files and find a mass of crawling things spilled on the floor and on ur file. Sigh... i have no idea wad the hell they want with the file for since i dun eat in my room... K so i did wad other insect-fearing female wud do, which wud be to throw the files on the floor and run screaming outta the room... Lolx den grab the bottle of Mortein (insect killing spray thingy) and sprayed at the mess on the floor to my hearts content =D then left the dead ants on the floor for my daddy to clean for me hehehehe... coz got tutition and i dint wanna be late...(and also becoz i dint wanna touch the dead ants) One single ant is fine, you can juz squish it with something but seeing all tt crawling ants... Bluergh...

Thank goodness for Mortein...

Tmr is Singapore Idol!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha and im seriously gonna vote for Sly like nobody's business =D

Oh and wtf is Sean Tay doing in my sci tuition?!?!?!?! Urgh... That's the blasted idiot who went to the same chinese tuition as me in pri sch and said tt i went to Normal stream after PSLE................. Bastardddd...............

Shop shop shop!

Went on major shopping spreee today with my mum.. Cheers to mum for providing the moolah to pay for my stuff hehe =D=D=D haha i swear if she deducted it frm my allowance ill have no allowance left for a while.. lolx but it was mostly clothes shopping at Centrepoint and Orchard Point which meant i dint get the new cds and books tt i wanted.. Im tempted to write up a wishlist but i suspect im gonna be the one buying everything so might as well not... sigh oh well... too many things to buy, not enuff cash...

Oooh and next week im off to Genting for a few days of shopping there =) yeay! Souvenirs anybody?;p

Precarious

Meaning not safe or secure..

Imagine sitting at the edge of the top of a really tall building... Look down and you see cars zooming by on the road.. See these cars through ur toes as ur legs are dangling off the building.. See the pigeons cooing at the other side of the ledge.. Dare you reach out to it, wud you even dare to move? Wow if you can conjure up tt image.. the feeling tt comes from is pretty powerful. At least to me.. Before you think im going suicidal im not.. Im juz contemplating wad i saw on the telly (you have no idea wad watching useless soap operas can do to ur brain hehe;p)

The character was obviously thinking of jumping off you noe.. thinking and asking himself if it wud really matter if he juz pushed himself off the damn building... Keeping in mind tt since the cars are all going past at such alarming speed theres practically no chance of survival if you jumped.

Lolx dunt you think tt the image is extremely suited to the word "precarious"?

*Bangs Head Against Wall*

Lolx you are not to feel sorry for the wall ;p

K so yesterday was the st johns island thingy where a bunch of us bio ppl got to spend a whole day on the island checking out marine biology/ecosystem blah. Sposed to be for our bio prelims which mr peh kindly hinted tt he mite set a question on this. (ahem ttz a freaking hint if you dint know) And i gotta admit tt it was pretty fun and mr pehs a really funny guy. Lolx he was picking on joy the whole morning hehe.. But den i dint manage to enjoy it as much as i wud have liked to becoz of THAT TME OF THE MONTH.

Hmmz so yeah.. and the worse thing was tt it was... unexpected. So tt kinda sucked. I shall spare you of the gross details but ok i admit it.. Itz tough being a girl lolx..

So den there was no reception on st johns island which made recieving and sending msgs impossible. Which meant i only recieved a msg sent at 11.30 at ard 5.30 =( and tt was a pretty impt msg as well... but nvm i shant brood abt it..

Den today went to do something with my hair.. I havent decided if i like it or not but well.. lets juz say itz kinda shorter den usual.. Trying to tie it wud result in a 2 inch "ponytail".. but den again now tt itz juz the start of the hols it'll grow back soon..

Lolx to be entirely honest im only blogging for the sake of updating and not coz i really have something to say.. Im juz kinda waiting for mail you see so mite as well blog.. I hafta get used to this silence soon lolx =P

Nobody's Home

I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies broken inside
No place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reason why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you left behind

Be strong, be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs,
where she belongs

Her feeling she hides
Her dream she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over the place

She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies broken inside
No place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside

She's lost inside

Inner Calm

How does one walk in a thunderstorm to enjoy the feel of the wind and the rain on oneself.. and yet not worry abt being struck by lightning? Izzen tt pretty much the same as taking chances knowing tt theres a little bit of risk involved and yet you do it anyway... juz for tt fleeting moment of joy? Does one take tt chance while fully understanding the risks involved and how wud one overcome tt fear for the risky n the unknown?

Lolx i tend to get all "philosophical" when after i screw up hahaha... although i think i shud leave this job to someone else.. This all seems so dreary and morbid.... which is not necessarily wad im in need of right now...

Regrets

And all shall fade into oblivion....

I shall not bother to explain myself since im in a bad mood. Today was the last day of school and it was sposed to have been a nice day but somehow screws-ups occur. Somehow i have tt amazing knack of doing tt so often.